Can I tell you that it’s taken me 38 years to truly understand what self-love means. Even when I taught classes, did my reiki sessions, & talked about the heart chakra representing love, I was not fully practicing my own self-love to its fullest potential. I touched the surface by doing a lot of actions of self-love..pedicures, meditating, giving in to indulgent foods, a trip to the salon, etc.
I thought my weight gain through the last several months was typical of my yo-yo dieting routines & I put myself down a lot. I would look at pictures and focus on the excess body fat I carry around my midsection, the double chin, the dull skin tone, my fuller face, etc. I would hide behind others in group pictures so that all of what everyone sees in person could not be seen in photos.
I finally had enough & came to a point where I surrendered. The thinking that I was some unsightly burden or if only I had different genes or maybe another quick diet approach will solve it...surrendered. It was & continues to be the best moment of my life!
I look at myself & thank the person that I see in the mirror because she is so intelligent & amazing as she is setting the stage for the future version of me. How could I possibly achieve all my dreams & goals by constantly berating the person who was going to take me through the journey? It made no sense at all. I now cherish her in all the “decades” of weight her body has been at and will go through because she is strong enough to now realize that out of the highest vibration on this planet, which is love, amazing things can transform & come to fruition.
How did this happen? Did I wake up one day just with a different mindset? No. It took days & months of writing in my journal about my thoughts, asking myself the hardest questions ever. I got coached by my peer life coaches each week so we could analyze & process all the emotional weight I carried deep underneath the surface. To this day, I still work on this & will always do so.
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